Ok, so I haven't posted in awhile. It's been busy lately, and a lot has been going on. Some changes going on, and I'm happy about it. :)

So I had my birthday party on the 14th @ Fajita Flats. Had an absolute blast! It was so fun! Thanx to everyone who came!

On the 16th I went out to lunch with Glenn and Zina (pastors) after church and it was fine. Towards the end of the lunch I decided to talk to them about something that had been weighing on my mind for about 6 months. I had really been frustrated with it thought for about 3 months. I felt my time at the church was over. My gifts were not being used, I wasn't doing anything, and I needed more. I prayed and prayed about it, waited it out, had patience, and now knew it was time to go. What was kewl is they said they had been praying and felt the same way. It was great. They asked which church I was looking at. I told them Calvary Christian Fellowship. My heart had been drawn to it over the last few months and these were Pastors I actually respected and knew I could trust. They said they saw me going somewhere like that church. We decided I would go for one last sevice and they would send me off with a "blessing".

The next day I got a call from Glenn saying they would not support my decision to attend CCF, due to my Dad and Shannon being there, becuz they knew my Mom would not approve and wouldn't wanna get caught in the middle of something... My Mother? Um, I kinda don't live with her anymore. She has no say over my spiritual life, or the decisions I make... I just said ok. Really I was just like whatever. All I knew was I was about to be very happy, and in a place I knew God called me to be.

The next day I get a slip in the mail that says I have a certified letter waiting at the post office... It's from the church, so I go and get it on Wednesday. I read the most ridiculous things! I was infuriated, and hurt. They believed the accusations brought up about my Dad last year, they brought up my Mom yet again, they questioned my maturity, accused me of not using wisdom, INSTRUCTED me to stay at Trailwood until I found a better place to go, asked that if I chose to still go to CCF not to tell the congregation... WHAT!?!? Their reasoning was that I could hurt the momentum of the Holy Spirit... ARE YOU SERIOUS!?!?! That's most ridiculous thing I have ever heard!

I was absolutely appaled, and needless to say ANGRY. I was so upset, and hurt. I couldn't believe what was being said. After some counseling from Pastor Rod who is unlike anyone I've ever known (told me I am not to defend myself, to walk away knowing I am doing the right thing, and let God take care of the rest). Folow after Peace he said. I didnt like the idea of not defending myself, or letting them have a peice of my mind. I decided not to go on Sunday, which actually came with an overwhelming peace. I resolved that I was just gonna DO IT! And guess what!? I don't need man's "blessing" to do what God has told me to do. I will follow HIS instruction over anyone elses. So that's that.

I got a 2nd job watching 2 absolutely adorable sweet girls overnight a couple times a week while their dad works at the hospital overnight. GREAT to have money to pay off some junk! Unfortunately my hours got cut at work, and then the girls went to their Grandmas last minute which prevents me from working for the next 2 weeks with them. I have some bills to pay which depended on that money, and now I don't have it so Im not sure what I'll do. But I know God supplies all my needs, and He's sure of what He's doing. :) I also was supposed to see John Mayer, and buy the tickets this week, but now I don't know! It sux! And I'm not sure if I'll see Tim McGraw this summer either. Oh well. Life goes on. :)

God is Good all the time, His Word is true, and I Love Him!

This is from something I read back in 2001 on President Bush that I found just a minute ago, and wanted to share with yall. I really love this man.

"The promises of our Declaration of Independence are not just for the strong, the independent or the healthy. They are for everyone, including unborn children," his statement said. "We share a great goal, to work toward a day when every child is welcomed in life and protected in law ... to build a culture of life, affirming that every person at every stage and season of life, is created equal in God's image."

Today, or rather yesterday was my birthday. Got a lot of birthday calls, text's, and emails. Was very sweet. Thank you everyone who did so. Just ran a lot of errands today, drove over 2 hours in the storming rain day. Yuk. I went and practiced with my band tonight. That went well. But leave it up to my birthday not to be normal! PJ messages me today. He went off to Teen Challenge to get his life right back in January. They are on strict contact regulations there. He had been doing great, changing a lot, really seeking God and growing. We (me and his parents) have been so proud of him. So he messages me. Weird. Turns out he left Teen Challenge. He feels they are too harsh on him, and it just isn't for him. He left 3 days ago and has been sleeping in the park. So I gave him a phone number to a church there in San Antonio who can help him get in contact with his parents. He hasn't at all today. I'm hoping he will. I also pray that his parents will give him another chance. I don't know that they will. This was his last chance basically. They've been at the end of their rope with him. I don't blame them at all either. Pray for PJ you guys. I would hate for him to go in the wrong direction again. If not for his sake, for his parents. Well, I've got a long day ahead of me. Waking up in 6 1/2 hours to pick up Eric, gotta get my tires rotated, do some stuff on my Mom's computer, help get some order in their apartment, pick up Heather from school, and get ready for my birthday party. I decided to have it at Fajita Flats instead thanx to the horrible rain. We'll have a blast there though. We always do! Peace!

Let's see... I went to TBI Graduation this past weekend to see some friends graduate. I was so proud of all of them. They did such a great job this year and all grew so much. I got to see some of the alumni I graduated with, and some close friends. We got there about midnight Friday night. We went around campus and talked to a bunch of people, made Eric get out of his dorm to talk to us, and finally headed back to Meagans room to sleep @ about 2 am. I couldn't sleep. Sweet barely could so at 4:30am we got up for Graduation Day basketball game. We had a bunch of fun. Then at 5:45 headed to town for breakfast and at 6:30 tried to go to sleep... yeah that didn't work. Got out of bed at 8 and had some fun. Unfortunately I hadn't been feeling good for a day or two, so not getting sleep made it worse that afternoon. I felt absolutely horrible... on the edge of flu feeling. I had to go into work that evening too. Yuk. I went in, and after work I came home and slept for over 12 hours. I didn't even make it to church I was so yuk.

Then I went to work again that afternoon and my friend Jason called that evening so we could hang out today. He's on leave from the Army for a week. He's been in Korea for a year and a half I believe. So it was GREAT to see him. We watched Matrix Revolutions which I hadn't seen and was somewhat dissapointed by. We also watched the best of Adam Sandler on SNL. So funny. We rented The Last Samurai but didnt get around to watching it. I hope to tomorrow.

I'm gonna have my birthday party on Friday. Probably just hang at my Moms new apartment, swim, drink margaritas, and hang out. That's all for now.

WOOOO!!!!!!!!! Man this weekend was AWESOME!!! Wooooo!!!! I had the best time ever! Left here about 3:15 am, go to Sherman about 7:15 am. Harley and Lorna are 2 kewl people. :) We left about 10:30 for Kansas City, stopped in Tulsa to pick Candace up, and got to Kansas City at about 5:30. During the ride we had a great time asking questions and laughing. Hey Lorna, are there any highways? Ha Ha! We dropped of Candace at the New Earth, and then headed to Harley and Lorna's hotel to get ready for the night. When we got to the New Earth I went to the will call ticket table only to find out I was on the guest list! Yay! I got in, and found Angie. Saw some of the band eating, messing with some equipment, and just chillin'. I went to look around and who walked RIGHT in front of me? KRIS! I was so excited! So I went upstairs, and ran into Jer and B! Yay! Swimmers! hehehe So we hung out, got ready for selling merch for the night, and watched WD do sound check. Woo! Kris told me I needed to head outside because Jodi was out there and wanted me to come out. Yay! I headed out and Methy, Frenchie and K-Funk were there with her as well! SO GREAT to meet them.

I watched the acoustic set from the back w/ Kris, B, and Jer. It was GREAT! I LOVED Lori starting out with "Galeana". Many, many band switches all done in chronological order which was super neat. "On A Night That Felt Outdated" was amazing to hear live. It's always been a huge fav of mine. "Lonely Sometimes", and "18 Bullet holes" were great too. The whole set was so good. At the end of the set Jer and B went downstairs, while me and Kris worked the upstairs merch table. Right after the electric set started me and Kris packed up the upstairs merch, and headed downstairs. We got into the room the band was playing in, by Jodi, Maggie, Methy, Frenchie, and Mark, just in time to hear our "To Chase Away The Birds" favs. Kris and I were particularly glad to hear "Get Me Clear". I must have listened to that one 5 times on the way back home. "Wicked Web" RAWKED my sox off!

So after the show was over, we ran merch a little longer then headed out. Kris, and B took me and Jodi back to Jodi's Aunt and Uncle's House. We got lost thanks to the one way streets, and Jodi having the worst sense of direction. LOL LOVE YOU GIRL! We were sooooo beat when we got in the door. We washed up and went to bed. Next morning we got a tour of the house, complete w/ a secret bookshelf that opens. Woo!

Around 3 pm we all met up at the park in front of the Nelson Museum I believe it's called. It was Me, Jodi, Jer, Jenn, Maggie, Methy, Frenchie, K-Funk, Harley, Lorna, Mark, and Wes. We all stood around, kicked a soccer ball, talked, laughed, reminisced. We were there for a good hour, and then B and Kris FINALLY decided to show their faces after they ate a whole restaurant! j/k ;) The rest of us decided we were hungry so went to eat. We went to this Middle Eastern restaurant called New Jerusalem. I decided to stay safe though cuz I had a long night ahead of me and just got a chicken Caesar salad.

Then we headed back to the New Earth for... Art Class... to make shirts. :) Woo! That was fun. We all drew the SOS fish on the front. It's probably the only thing in the world I have ever been able to draw. Well, me being so bright as I am started drawing it backwards. I had to go in and get the merch ready, so Jodi finished it the right way. I came back out deciding to write on the back the first thing I heard from Waterdeep that caught my attention: "Like a dog you don't want pregnant so you fix her." :) I can remember the first time I heard that making Brian (the guy who Intro?d me to WD) play that song over and over. Good times. When I went outside to show everyone my shirt mullet (hehe) there was a guy filming and interviewing people. They wanted me to tell him the story of when I cried. So I did, but said ya know its ok, cuz they'll never remember it was me. That's when they tell me that the interview is for the dvd, and I FINALY notice how much like Don this guys looks (yeah it's Tom, Don's brother). Dang.

So the night starts, same as the night before. Oh! I saw Chad and Lisa, that was kewl. Lisa's face was so funny when I told her who I was. hehe She's so cute. While upstairs I was listening to "OANTFO" and Kris came by me and put her arm around me. She almost got me to cry talking about not seeing everyone again, and stuff. That has stuck with me the last couple of days. I'll come back to that later. Then Lori started playing "Hush" I remembered Charlie talking about how his wife loves that song so Kris went and got the # from Frenchie to call him. Yay! So we do our merch thang, and then me and Kris grab our cameras and PUSH our way to the VERY front. We rawked out to "Get Me Clean" of course, and other favs. I headed to the back during the slow stuff, helped out w/ merch, then chilled w/ Lorna and Methy a little too. Before the slow part of the show started I was shocked when Lori pointed to me knowing exactly who I was. Everyone (including Tom standing right next to me) thought that was so great. LOL

After the show I helped w/ merch some, and got to talk w/ Brandon, Don and Lori. Don actually knew who I was and said the person who sent me up there was very blessed to do it, but wouldn't say who it was. Dang. LOL He signed my shirt which he thought was pretty funny. I talked to Lori who knew who I was, thought it was kewl I came up from Houston, and was just as nice, and kewl as you get. AND NO! I DIDN'T CRY! :) I took some good pictures w/ Don and Lori, which you can see along with other pics from the weekend at the link at the end of this post.

Me and Jodi headed home, went to bed, woke up, she dropped me off at the hotel, and me, Harley, and Lorna went and picked up Candace and headed back home. I was quiet the whole way pretty much just letting it all set in, plus I was exhausted. We got back to Sherman, thanked Harley and Lorna (THANK YOU GUYS AGAIN!!!), and headed home. I started to get tired driving home, so I thought if I was getting tired, others probably were too. So I called a few people to make sure they were all doin ok, and everyone was good. Yay!

So I'm home. I'm missing everyone too. It's amazing the connection you have with people you've never met in person. Kris, you said it. We've been through some stuff together. Man I miss you already! Jodi, how funny you are! You are so great to talk to. B, Oh man you are a FREAKIN RIOT!! Jer, you're to kewl for school! Harley, and Lorna yall are so awesome! Methy, while I was talkin to Lori, you coming over to me just putting your arm around me meant a lot. It made me realize how great all of you (and people I didn't mention) are. Every single one of you made my weekend a lot better than it would have been with out you. I REALLY love you guys a lot, and this is NOT goodbye! In fact I think Lisa's idea on her blog about all getting together once a year in Colorado sounds good! hehe. I will end this LONG entry by saying Jodi's favorite quote of the weekend from me: "I hope Jesus lets us have a Waterdeep party when we get to Heaven". :)