"You only get what you give..." been thinkin' about that tonight. I've been "giving" a lot of cynicism & doubt lately. Not exactly something I wanna be "getting". Looking over some areas of my life I wonder if things will change, get better, happen. A part of me thinks, why should they, why would they? And all of us have that part. But you have to be careful of entertaining that part too much. And I have been lately. I don't want to do that anymore. I wanna believe that things will get better, I won't always feel so indifferent towards my job, I will relish in the area of ministry I am in, I will again kiss someone & have someone kiss me w/ a passion that's almost frightening, I will quit worrying about whether or not my sister will finally get it together, I won't care when a song comes on the radio that use to break my heart, I will be content w/out being complacent... I will give.

Well, let's see if I start using this again. I make an effort probably about once a year... come and change things up & then never return. But I REALLY am gonna try to get back to blogging. I know how much my "reader" misses me. ;-) Life is ridiculously busy but I think if I just get through the next month/ month and a half, I'll be good to go, plus it'll be SUMMER! Or atleast it better be!

This is my 10-20 playlist. All the "mainstream" songs I loved in the 2nd decade of my life... Some I still love, some it's pretty embarrassing. Either way, here it is.

I just helped my best friend pick out the ring he is planning on giving to his girlfriend.

Weird.