One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I know...
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go

And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know me

Thank you Jesus. Thank you.

So how is everyone doing? Well I hope. I've had a pretty kewl last week or so. Spring break was just what I needed. I had such a great time. I worked a lot, but outside of that I was able to relax, see my family, spend time with friends, and just have a good time. Highlights of Spring Break:
1.) I'm getting a nice refund from the government that is going towards my trip to Oregon this summer to see my best guy Christian.
2.) Got my nose pierced.
3.) I was able to hang out at my Mom's tea room with her and Sweet.
4.) Went to Portico (singles group @ Lakewood) with Jon.
5.) Saw Maroon 5 in concert and met Jesse (keys) and James (guitar) afterwards.
6.) Drank green beer
7.) Slept
So that's about it as far as Spring Break goes. I've been dealing with the fact that in my quest for spiritual change, betterment (is that a word), or acceleration, I have no one immediately around me who is there. It sucks and it's hard, cuz I get a lot of "oh you're doing that again"'s, or whatever. But it's all good. I'm not really down about it at all, it can just be annoying. But it's all good. God is good.

I have gone on a DC Talk trip lately. I don't know why, but it's here. I repurchased the Jesus Freak album since the one I bought like 10 years ago is insanely scratched up. I remember when it first came out, thinking that album was the greatest thing ever. As much smack as people talk about them (they're unoriginal, they're overated, sell-outs, a bunch of no talent losers surrounded by hype [none of which I agree with but have considered]) those guys really did do a lot for christian music and christian young people who were hungry for something kewl. I was really liking a lot of the rock music out at the time, but I didn't want to really listen to it, because I wasnted to have something more uplifting.
I have personally met the guys and in fact got to hang out a whole weekend with them. They were touring in Tx at the time and we went from the Houston concert to the San Antonio concert with them. Seriously nice guys who really cared about getting a good message out through good music and hopefully it would help people. I have relived so many memories the past week or two through their music; youth group trips, concerts, lock-ins, and just hanging out with friends. Some of the best times of my teenage life were accompanied by their music.
TobyMac (who, I don't care what you say, is a kewl guy) is gonna be here in 3 weeks and I think I'm gonna go with some friends, enjoy the music, jump around, and feel like a kid again.