Things are going well here. More changes, and more things heading in the right direction. Sweet moved out last week. She moved in with her sister, who has 4 kids, and I just don't know how she does it. Would drive me nuts! But more power to her if she's happy. I don't see, or talk to her much. I think she's happy with Scott and that's about all that matters to her. Hopefully when she gets a phone I'll hear from her.

My band has our first gig this coming up Thursday. So that will be kewl. I'm excited about being on stage and singing again. I'm sure it will prove to be a good time.

I am becoming more involved with politics and George W. Bush's grassroots campaign. I signed up to be a volunteer and have been writing newspapers, and plan to call talk radio next week. Pastor Rod has put me as head of the voter registration drive we'll be doing at the church and I will be getting information about the candidates to people who are not clear on the issues, and the figures. So I am very excited about that.

I have been filling out my financial aid forms this past week for college. I'm sure It'll work out fine, but I have been so nervous, and just a little scared about this. I can't wait to really start everything with school! :)

My job is ok I guess. It's a job and I'm thankful I have it, but I am not a huge fan of retail right now. I'm good at it, but I don't wanna do it just cuz I'm good at it. I really want an office job, and one with medical and dental benefits. I think I'm gonna have to wait for that though, so I can figure out my schedule once I start school in the fall.

Sorry it's a surface catch up session right now, but I've gotta go. My wonderful job is calling my name. Peace!

I feel so alone. Completely alone. The struggles, the joys, the life I'm living: no one seems to be able to relate, understand, or remotely care (this isn't about that though). I know everyone goes through this, everyone has this phase. This segment has been going on for quite some time though. It's getting tired. I'm getting tired.

There's a phone next to me with NO ONE to call and talk to about this. There are close to 120 numbers in my phone, but out of all of those people or places that I have found worthy to take up some of the memory in my cell, no one would really truly care, or if they would care, they wouldn't be able to relate. If they would be able to relate, they wouldn't care.

I was lying in bed trying to sleep, but of course, it's another night I am unable to. Thinking about, well, people. Family, friends, acquaintances, employers, co-workers, church members, and the like. I really don't have friends anymore. I mean don't get me wrong. I've got people I have connections with, love dearly, and would definetly go to about all the big things in my life, but no one really in my life.

I had a birthday party about a month ago. At the beginning of the party I had some friends there who I really love and care about, and I know who are the same with me. I was so happy to have Daniel, Lindsey, and Eric there. They left after about an hour due to some things they couldn't avoid. I was left with some family, and people I've known for awhile. But I don't think they were there for me. I think they were there for the fun. And they were THERE. The people I wanted to be there weren't. But I can't talk to the people that were or are there. They wouldn’t relate even if they cared. The people that might care wouldn't be able to relate cuz they all have someone close, relatable, a friend.

I have never gone through a time when I didn't have friends. The past year has been the most intensely difficult as far as that goes. I've always had companionship, something to do, people to talk to, someone I could relate to. I don't have that anymore. What really stinks is the one who is supposed to be my best friend isn't. I don't have a best friend anymore. God I miss her... and we live in the same house. I don't think she misses me.

I'm not gonna sit here and try to act like I am just venting and will be ok, or I am just trying to analyze things. Becuz honestly, this hurts. I AM ALONE. My Mom can't share in all my joy, becuz she doesn't agree with where some of that comes from. I can't share my loneliness with people I would be close to, because they have a sole someone. NO, stop! Don't tell me about how it's just a phase, or how it's just something I'm having to go through, or anything like that. I'm sick of it. I'm tired of those lame explanations. They don't make me feel any better for your information.

Sometimes I get a longing where I feel like I wanna run away so bad. Instead of getting off at my exit, I wanna leave my car in drive, and leave it all behind (John Mayer's "Why Georgia"). What would that secure? Nothing, I know already. I'm tired of feeling deserted. And if you are reading this, do not try to contact me and say how sorry you are for me, and try to cheer me up by telling me you'll be my friend. I'm supposed to feel better on the account of pity? Don't even.

God, I have not forgotten you in all of this. I know you are always here with me, I know you are always sitting here crying with me, hating the pain I'm going through just like I am. I know you felt lonely, I know your son did. Gosh I can't imagine having to go through that time in Gethsemane alone. Having to go wake up your supposed friends after only one hour, when you were praying about your inevitable soon coming death. Sweating so intensely, blood is flowing out of your pores.

I'm sorry I get to this point sometimes. I know you can relate. You've gone through it way worse than I have, or ever will. I know that. I'm sorry for being such a fool about things. I pray Lord that you would increase the patience, strength, and motivation in me to just do your will. I know you will bring the people I need in my life at the appointed time, and may I not be so busy minded that I don't take a look at what's in front of me when it is.

I always tend to come back to 2 lines in 2 Waterdeep songs that always help my resolve. "I just get lonely sometimes, but I know I just need you." "Oh God. It hurts so bad to love anybody down here. But oh, that's right. You know so well: one thorn crown, three nails and a spear."

Ok, so I haven't posted in awhile. It's been busy lately, and a lot has been going on. Some changes going on, and I'm happy about it. :)

So I had my birthday party on the 14th @ Fajita Flats. Had an absolute blast! It was so fun! Thanx to everyone who came!

On the 16th I went out to lunch with Glenn and Zina (pastors) after church and it was fine. Towards the end of the lunch I decided to talk to them about something that had been weighing on my mind for about 6 months. I had really been frustrated with it thought for about 3 months. I felt my time at the church was over. My gifts were not being used, I wasn't doing anything, and I needed more. I prayed and prayed about it, waited it out, had patience, and now knew it was time to go. What was kewl is they said they had been praying and felt the same way. It was great. They asked which church I was looking at. I told them Calvary Christian Fellowship. My heart had been drawn to it over the last few months and these were Pastors I actually respected and knew I could trust. They said they saw me going somewhere like that church. We decided I would go for one last sevice and they would send me off with a "blessing".

The next day I got a call from Glenn saying they would not support my decision to attend CCF, due to my Dad and Shannon being there, becuz they knew my Mom would not approve and wouldn't wanna get caught in the middle of something... My Mother? Um, I kinda don't live with her anymore. She has no say over my spiritual life, or the decisions I make... I just said ok. Really I was just like whatever. All I knew was I was about to be very happy, and in a place I knew God called me to be.

The next day I get a slip in the mail that says I have a certified letter waiting at the post office... It's from the church, so I go and get it on Wednesday. I read the most ridiculous things! I was infuriated, and hurt. They believed the accusations brought up about my Dad last year, they brought up my Mom yet again, they questioned my maturity, accused me of not using wisdom, INSTRUCTED me to stay at Trailwood until I found a better place to go, asked that if I chose to still go to CCF not to tell the congregation... WHAT!?!? Their reasoning was that I could hurt the momentum of the Holy Spirit... ARE YOU SERIOUS!?!?! That's most ridiculous thing I have ever heard!

I was absolutely appaled, and needless to say ANGRY. I was so upset, and hurt. I couldn't believe what was being said. After some counseling from Pastor Rod who is unlike anyone I've ever known (told me I am not to defend myself, to walk away knowing I am doing the right thing, and let God take care of the rest). Folow after Peace he said. I didnt like the idea of not defending myself, or letting them have a peice of my mind. I decided not to go on Sunday, which actually came with an overwhelming peace. I resolved that I was just gonna DO IT! And guess what!? I don't need man's "blessing" to do what God has told me to do. I will follow HIS instruction over anyone elses. So that's that.

I got a 2nd job watching 2 absolutely adorable sweet girls overnight a couple times a week while their dad works at the hospital overnight. GREAT to have money to pay off some junk! Unfortunately my hours got cut at work, and then the girls went to their Grandmas last minute which prevents me from working for the next 2 weeks with them. I have some bills to pay which depended on that money, and now I don't have it so Im not sure what I'll do. But I know God supplies all my needs, and He's sure of what He's doing. :) I also was supposed to see John Mayer, and buy the tickets this week, but now I don't know! It sux! And I'm not sure if I'll see Tim McGraw this summer either. Oh well. Life goes on. :)

God is Good all the time, His Word is true, and I Love Him!

This is from something I read back in 2001 on President Bush that I found just a minute ago, and wanted to share with yall. I really love this man.

"The promises of our Declaration of Independence are not just for the strong, the independent or the healthy. They are for everyone, including unborn children," his statement said. "We share a great goal, to work toward a day when every child is welcomed in life and protected in law ... to build a culture of life, affirming that every person at every stage and season of life, is created equal in God's image."

Today, or rather yesterday was my birthday. Got a lot of birthday calls, text's, and emails. Was very sweet. Thank you everyone who did so. Just ran a lot of errands today, drove over 2 hours in the storming rain day. Yuk. I went and practiced with my band tonight. That went well. But leave it up to my birthday not to be normal! PJ messages me today. He went off to Teen Challenge to get his life right back in January. They are on strict contact regulations there. He had been doing great, changing a lot, really seeking God and growing. We (me and his parents) have been so proud of him. So he messages me. Weird. Turns out he left Teen Challenge. He feels they are too harsh on him, and it just isn't for him. He left 3 days ago and has been sleeping in the park. So I gave him a phone number to a church there in San Antonio who can help him get in contact with his parents. He hasn't at all today. I'm hoping he will. I also pray that his parents will give him another chance. I don't know that they will. This was his last chance basically. They've been at the end of their rope with him. I don't blame them at all either. Pray for PJ you guys. I would hate for him to go in the wrong direction again. If not for his sake, for his parents. Well, I've got a long day ahead of me. Waking up in 6 1/2 hours to pick up Eric, gotta get my tires rotated, do some stuff on my Mom's computer, help get some order in their apartment, pick up Heather from school, and get ready for my birthday party. I decided to have it at Fajita Flats instead thanx to the horrible rain. We'll have a blast there though. We always do! Peace!

Let's see... I went to TBI Graduation this past weekend to see some friends graduate. I was so proud of all of them. They did such a great job this year and all grew so much. I got to see some of the alumni I graduated with, and some close friends. We got there about midnight Friday night. We went around campus and talked to a bunch of people, made Eric get out of his dorm to talk to us, and finally headed back to Meagans room to sleep @ about 2 am. I couldn't sleep. Sweet barely could so at 4:30am we got up for Graduation Day basketball game. We had a bunch of fun. Then at 5:45 headed to town for breakfast and at 6:30 tried to go to sleep... yeah that didn't work. Got out of bed at 8 and had some fun. Unfortunately I hadn't been feeling good for a day or two, so not getting sleep made it worse that afternoon. I felt absolutely horrible... on the edge of flu feeling. I had to go into work that evening too. Yuk. I went in, and after work I came home and slept for over 12 hours. I didn't even make it to church I was so yuk.

Then I went to work again that afternoon and my friend Jason called that evening so we could hang out today. He's on leave from the Army for a week. He's been in Korea for a year and a half I believe. So it was GREAT to see him. We watched Matrix Revolutions which I hadn't seen and was somewhat dissapointed by. We also watched the best of Adam Sandler on SNL. So funny. We rented The Last Samurai but didnt get around to watching it. I hope to tomorrow.

I'm gonna have my birthday party on Friday. Probably just hang at my Moms new apartment, swim, drink margaritas, and hang out. That's all for now.

WOOOO!!!!!!!!! Man this weekend was AWESOME!!! Wooooo!!!! I had the best time ever! Left here about 3:15 am, go to Sherman about 7:15 am. Harley and Lorna are 2 kewl people. :) We left about 10:30 for Kansas City, stopped in Tulsa to pick Candace up, and got to Kansas City at about 5:30. During the ride we had a great time asking questions and laughing. Hey Lorna, are there any highways? Ha Ha! We dropped of Candace at the New Earth, and then headed to Harley and Lorna's hotel to get ready for the night. When we got to the New Earth I went to the will call ticket table only to find out I was on the guest list! Yay! I got in, and found Angie. Saw some of the band eating, messing with some equipment, and just chillin'. I went to look around and who walked RIGHT in front of me? KRIS! I was so excited! So I went upstairs, and ran into Jer and B! Yay! Swimmers! hehehe So we hung out, got ready for selling merch for the night, and watched WD do sound check. Woo! Kris told me I needed to head outside because Jodi was out there and wanted me to come out. Yay! I headed out and Methy, Frenchie and K-Funk were there with her as well! SO GREAT to meet them.

I watched the acoustic set from the back w/ Kris, B, and Jer. It was GREAT! I LOVED Lori starting out with "Galeana". Many, many band switches all done in chronological order which was super neat. "On A Night That Felt Outdated" was amazing to hear live. It's always been a huge fav of mine. "Lonely Sometimes", and "18 Bullet holes" were great too. The whole set was so good. At the end of the set Jer and B went downstairs, while me and Kris worked the upstairs merch table. Right after the electric set started me and Kris packed up the upstairs merch, and headed downstairs. We got into the room the band was playing in, by Jodi, Maggie, Methy, Frenchie, and Mark, just in time to hear our "To Chase Away The Birds" favs. Kris and I were particularly glad to hear "Get Me Clear". I must have listened to that one 5 times on the way back home. "Wicked Web" RAWKED my sox off!

So after the show was over, we ran merch a little longer then headed out. Kris, and B took me and Jodi back to Jodi's Aunt and Uncle's House. We got lost thanks to the one way streets, and Jodi having the worst sense of direction. LOL LOVE YOU GIRL! We were sooooo beat when we got in the door. We washed up and went to bed. Next morning we got a tour of the house, complete w/ a secret bookshelf that opens. Woo!

Around 3 pm we all met up at the park in front of the Nelson Museum I believe it's called. It was Me, Jodi, Jer, Jenn, Maggie, Methy, Frenchie, K-Funk, Harley, Lorna, Mark, and Wes. We all stood around, kicked a soccer ball, talked, laughed, reminisced. We were there for a good hour, and then B and Kris FINALLY decided to show their faces after they ate a whole restaurant! j/k ;) The rest of us decided we were hungry so went to eat. We went to this Middle Eastern restaurant called New Jerusalem. I decided to stay safe though cuz I had a long night ahead of me and just got a chicken Caesar salad.

Then we headed back to the New Earth for... Art Class... to make shirts. :) Woo! That was fun. We all drew the SOS fish on the front. It's probably the only thing in the world I have ever been able to draw. Well, me being so bright as I am started drawing it backwards. I had to go in and get the merch ready, so Jodi finished it the right way. I came back out deciding to write on the back the first thing I heard from Waterdeep that caught my attention: "Like a dog you don't want pregnant so you fix her." :) I can remember the first time I heard that making Brian (the guy who Intro?d me to WD) play that song over and over. Good times. When I went outside to show everyone my shirt mullet (hehe) there was a guy filming and interviewing people. They wanted me to tell him the story of when I cried. So I did, but said ya know its ok, cuz they'll never remember it was me. That's when they tell me that the interview is for the dvd, and I FINALY notice how much like Don this guys looks (yeah it's Tom, Don's brother). Dang.

So the night starts, same as the night before. Oh! I saw Chad and Lisa, that was kewl. Lisa's face was so funny when I told her who I was. hehe She's so cute. While upstairs I was listening to "OANTFO" and Kris came by me and put her arm around me. She almost got me to cry talking about not seeing everyone again, and stuff. That has stuck with me the last couple of days. I'll come back to that later. Then Lori started playing "Hush" I remembered Charlie talking about how his wife loves that song so Kris went and got the # from Frenchie to call him. Yay! So we do our merch thang, and then me and Kris grab our cameras and PUSH our way to the VERY front. We rawked out to "Get Me Clean" of course, and other favs. I headed to the back during the slow stuff, helped out w/ merch, then chilled w/ Lorna and Methy a little too. Before the slow part of the show started I was shocked when Lori pointed to me knowing exactly who I was. Everyone (including Tom standing right next to me) thought that was so great. LOL

After the show I helped w/ merch some, and got to talk w/ Brandon, Don and Lori. Don actually knew who I was and said the person who sent me up there was very blessed to do it, but wouldn't say who it was. Dang. LOL He signed my shirt which he thought was pretty funny. I talked to Lori who knew who I was, thought it was kewl I came up from Houston, and was just as nice, and kewl as you get. AND NO! I DIDN'T CRY! :) I took some good pictures w/ Don and Lori, which you can see along with other pics from the weekend at the link at the end of this post.

Me and Jodi headed home, went to bed, woke up, she dropped me off at the hotel, and me, Harley, and Lorna went and picked up Candace and headed back home. I was quiet the whole way pretty much just letting it all set in, plus I was exhausted. We got back to Sherman, thanked Harley and Lorna (THANK YOU GUYS AGAIN!!!), and headed home. I started to get tired driving home, so I thought if I was getting tired, others probably were too. So I called a few people to make sure they were all doin ok, and everyone was good. Yay!

So I'm home. I'm missing everyone too. It's amazing the connection you have with people you've never met in person. Kris, you said it. We've been through some stuff together. Man I miss you already! Jodi, how funny you are! You are so great to talk to. B, Oh man you are a FREAKIN RIOT!! Jer, you're to kewl for school! Harley, and Lorna yall are so awesome! Methy, while I was talkin to Lori, you coming over to me just putting your arm around me meant a lot. It made me realize how great all of you (and people I didn't mention) are. Every single one of you made my weekend a lot better than it would have been with out you. I REALLY love you guys a lot, and this is NOT goodbye! In fact I think Lisa's idea on her blog about all getting together once a year in Colorado sounds good! hehe. I will end this LONG entry by saying Jodi's favorite quote of the weekend from me: "I hope Jesus lets us have a Waterdeep party when we get to Heaven". :)

Yay! I'm going to Kansas City! I'm in the middle of packing, and organizing right now. Woo! I'm pumped! HaHa! Angie just sent me Ramen in the package she sent me! Silly girl! I'm goin to work tonight, then watching a movie with Sweet (she has to see Mean Girls tonight). Then I'll be coming home, getting all my stuff in the car, and leaving at about 3 am. Yay! Pray for safety while I'm traveling! Thanx!

Today I went to work. There was shoplifter. BLUH! Sweet got a job at the mall too working at the movie theatre. So we went to go see Ladykillers after work. We walked out after 30 minutes. It just did not hold my attention, the cussing was distracting as it made everyone, and the movie look ignorant. Tomorrow we plan on seeing 13 Going on 30, and Thursday, Mean Girls. Yay! HaHa!

I got an email today from Angie (WD's office manager and assistant) telling me someone had contacted her wanting to pay my way to KC to see WD!!!! I am so floored! I find out tomorrow if I can go or not. It depends on if someone can take my place at work. I hope someone can! I want to go so badly! I'll let yall know what happens. For now I am going to bed! I am TIRED!

So I went to the party. Man I was tired. I was up 'til 4 am the night before working on her present, and was an hour late to the party (not a big deal) cuz I was working on it more. Her present is right here. It started off kinda bumpy. I was kinda quiet, shy, and was isolating myself. That's NOT ME. After awhile Stephanie grabbed me to sit outside w/ her. So I was out there talking with her and not very talkative, or personal. Just acting weird... A little history on me and Stephanie...

We were best friends. We turned our lives around to be closer to God at the same time, held each other accountable, we were the kewlest punks, in leadership at TAG, went to Mexico, she was there for me big time after my Dad died, we were inseperable. She meant more to me than anyone... she still means more to me than a lot of people (example, when I heard about this party, I got Kristi a present, and even got Steph one for her Bday I missed in Feb.). A point came where things got kinda rocky for us after awhile. Just we were changing, guys came in our lives, and just stuff. It hit me like a breakup. LOL I had a very hard time when I would see her, there were times I wanted to call her to talk about stuff, but I knew we weren't there anymore. The last time I saw her was a year and 7 months ago. This was the first time I saw her that it didn't hurt. Back to the party...

I went outside at one point, called Eric and bawled my eyes out. I had no idea why I was feeling like that. Found out later why... let's just say "my aunt came to town". After I stopped crying, and fixed my makeup, I went back in. I apologized to Steph for acting weird. I wasn't sure why I was. She asked if maybe "my aunt was coming in town?" Told her I wasn't sure. So we talked hung out, laughed our butts off. Then it was time to get Kristi her gift. So we went to the computer, and I showed it to her. A bunch of others came, including Steph. There were times I saw tears in their eyes, then we laughed so hard about so many things. It was fun. So after hanging for awhile, I decided to leave. Steph grabbed me and said she wanted my cell #. I was kinda surprised. So I gave it to her. Then I left.

When Mom came home that night she had said she wished I would have stayed longer, but I told her I didn't see a reason to. She said Bill (Stephanie's Dad, Kristi's Step-Dad) had said it was so great to see me, Kristi and Stephanie together, laughing, and stuff like when we were younger. Before Mom came home, I called her so she would write down the website address for Kristi. And I told her to tell Stephanie she was right about why I was acting weird. LOL So when she got home, she said she had told Stephanie. I asked if she got it, and Mom said that she did. Stephanie got a big smile on her face, and said "I know we haven't seen each other in awhile, but I KNOW my girl!"

I've decided not to get my hopes up. I know if I do and nothing happens, I'll walk away hurt. I know people change, things change, and that's good. So the odds of me and Steph being close again is very slim. I will call her sometime and see what's up. Maybe try to do something. I would say I would love us to be friends again, but I won't bet on it, but I know yall already figured that one out. ;)

I went to Leigh's tonight and we went over the music we'd be playing, talked, laughed, and hung out. Good stuff. I'll be leaving from this side of town tomorrow afternoon and will head into work. I had a dream the other night someone put new strings on Sweet's guitar so I could start practicing again. Boy would that be nice!

I got a call the other day from a friend of mine, Leigh. I've known him for about 5 years I think... wow! Almost 6! I've been in the TAG Praise and Worship band with him, then we had out own outreach band as well. When I left for TBI that whole thing died, and I haven't done anything since music wise. I've missed it so much. So he calls, and says he's starting a new project, and wants me in it. Now I will share all the nice things he said (LOL): He said they need a strong female vocal, he doesn't know anyone who has a sound like I do, and that I have a good sense of good music. Ok, I'm done making myself smile now. LOL Anywayz. I AM SUPER EXCITED! I have been wanting this for so long! I miss singing, jamming with a band, and being on stage. This is gonna be so great! I'm very excited.

Work was fine today. There were some people who came in today, and they had british accents, which I always enjoy. Then when they were outside the store, they fired up a ciggarette... inside the mall!!! It was so funny, and so weird. We had to spray potpurri in the store, cuz it was everywhere. But it was so funny! I had never seen anyone do that! Can they do that over there? I don't know, but a computer can read your mind! For Real! Click Here!!

Went to work today and our DM (district manager) was there. His name is Ernie. He's a pretty kewl guy. He said he loved my smile and personality, but says I need to be as outgoing as I am, w/ the customers. I just try to be polite and not too loud, but I see what he's saying. Tim (McGraw) didn't win for the category he was up for at Flameworthy's which stinks, but his good pal Kenny (Chesney) won, so that's good. I'm hoping to find out about buddy passes tomorrow for Kansas City. I HAVE to go to these shows!! There's someone in Sherman, Tx offering me a ride, so I'd have to drive like 5 hours there, 5 hours back, so would need like $50 in gas. The tickets are $25 for both nights, then food for 3 days. Im hoping for the buddy passes cuz it would be more feesible money wise. SHOOT! I'd starve to see WD!

I'm going to a birthday paty this weekend for an old friend of mine. This should be pretty interesting. It's gonna be a reunion of sorts. All her old friends who never really talk anymore, but all still love eachother, hanging out, swimming, eating mex food, drinking margaritas. It will be fun I'm sure. The only thing I don't like was having to buy a bathing suit. It's just hard to find ones I like. Some of you know what I mean. LOL But that's ok. Well, that's all for tonight. Peace!

It's been yet again, a long time since I have blogged on my... wow! Almost 4 year old blog! Dang! I might have to do a tribute post one of these days! LOL So what's up with me? I moved out. I live w/ Sweet and her stepdad Casey an hour away from my family. That's been going well. For awhile there it was pretty rocky w/ me and Sweet. Not becuz we lived together, but becuz she got involved w/ someone who was not good for her. Since then he has been changing, and me and Sweet had a talk about some things and have been acting more like best friends again. I have a part-time job working at a clothing store in the mall. I want another job though, cuz Im not getting enuf hours. I got a car! It's a 93 Ford Explorer and it's amazing! In excellent condition, and it's all mine! :)

As far as my family goes, Heather failed her first year of high school. Poor thing. She's gonna do summer school, and 2 credit tests. It stinks cuz she was gonna live w/ me for the summer, but not now. Maybe she'll stay before and after. Taylor is taking GED classes, and will hopefully get her GED this summer. Mom is working at a great resturaunt, and she really enjoys it. She's seeing Jason again, but I've decided to stop caring. As long as my sis's are taken care of, i don't care. Unfortunately, they lost the house. It's been very difficult too. Having to realize that wont be our home anymore. The hardest thing is thinking of how that's the last place we had w/ Daddy before he died. They found an apartment, and it's hard moving a big house into a little apartment! IT's a nice complex though, so I'm sure they'll live. LOL

I'm still w/ my church. I'm still supposedly head of the youth group that's not there. That's been a big struggle with me. Sweet is doing an amazing job with the childrens ministry, and it stinks that there are NO youth. Well, there's one. I've tried talking to her and stuff, but it's hard when she has short answers. I've asked interests and stuff, but she said she doesn't really have any, that she doesnt do much of anything and she has no friends, cuz she's homeschooled. I would like to take her to a movie or something, but with so few hours at work it's just not possible right now. I'm also dealing with wanting to go to another church around here. My Dad goes there, he's the singles and cell pastor, would need an assistant, and the church is just booming! I love the pastor and his wife, and the church is just great. Mine is too, don't get me wrong. I love my church. I'm just struggling to find a place where I belong, especially since it was never my desire to be THE youth pastor, just assist and administrate. Anywayz. I'm not moving untill I get a clear answer from God.

I have gotten to see my 3 of my favorites with in a month of each other: John Mayer, Kenny Chesney, and Tim McGraw. Kenny was Taylors Bday surprise. I also took Heather to go see Avril Lavigne last week for her surprise. Their faces were priceless! I'm hoping to see my #1 fav band ever next weekend: WATERDEEP! This is their farewell show. My first and last real WD show. If anyone wants to give me a great Bday present, you can donate to the fund to get me to Kansas City, Missouri for the show. I would rather this than a Bday party.

I think that's all for now. Hope everyone is doing well. Peace!