Yay! I'm going to Kansas City! I'm in the middle of packing, and organizing right now. Woo! I'm pumped! HaHa! Angie just sent me Ramen in the package she sent me! Silly girl! I'm goin to work tonight, then watching a movie with Sweet (she has to see Mean Girls tonight). Then I'll be coming home, getting all my stuff in the car, and leaving at about 3 am. Yay! Pray for safety while I'm traveling! Thanx!

Today I went to work. There was shoplifter. BLUH! Sweet got a job at the mall too working at the movie theatre. So we went to go see Ladykillers after work. We walked out after 30 minutes. It just did not hold my attention, the cussing was distracting as it made everyone, and the movie look ignorant. Tomorrow we plan on seeing 13 Going on 30, and Thursday, Mean Girls. Yay! HaHa!

I got an email today from Angie (WD's office manager and assistant) telling me someone had contacted her wanting to pay my way to KC to see WD!!!! I am so floored! I find out tomorrow if I can go or not. It depends on if someone can take my place at work. I hope someone can! I want to go so badly! I'll let yall know what happens. For now I am going to bed! I am TIRED!

So I went to the party. Man I was tired. I was up 'til 4 am the night before working on her present, and was an hour late to the party (not a big deal) cuz I was working on it more. Her present is right here. It started off kinda bumpy. I was kinda quiet, shy, and was isolating myself. That's NOT ME. After awhile Stephanie grabbed me to sit outside w/ her. So I was out there talking with her and not very talkative, or personal. Just acting weird... A little history on me and Stephanie...

We were best friends. We turned our lives around to be closer to God at the same time, held each other accountable, we were the kewlest punks, in leadership at TAG, went to Mexico, she was there for me big time after my Dad died, we were inseperable. She meant more to me than anyone... she still means more to me than a lot of people (example, when I heard about this party, I got Kristi a present, and even got Steph one for her Bday I missed in Feb.). A point came where things got kinda rocky for us after awhile. Just we were changing, guys came in our lives, and just stuff. It hit me like a breakup. LOL I had a very hard time when I would see her, there were times I wanted to call her to talk about stuff, but I knew we weren't there anymore. The last time I saw her was a year and 7 months ago. This was the first time I saw her that it didn't hurt. Back to the party...

I went outside at one point, called Eric and bawled my eyes out. I had no idea why I was feeling like that. Found out later why... let's just say "my aunt came to town". After I stopped crying, and fixed my makeup, I went back in. I apologized to Steph for acting weird. I wasn't sure why I was. She asked if maybe "my aunt was coming in town?" Told her I wasn't sure. So we talked hung out, laughed our butts off. Then it was time to get Kristi her gift. So we went to the computer, and I showed it to her. A bunch of others came, including Steph. There were times I saw tears in their eyes, then we laughed so hard about so many things. It was fun. So after hanging for awhile, I decided to leave. Steph grabbed me and said she wanted my cell #. I was kinda surprised. So I gave it to her. Then I left.

When Mom came home that night she had said she wished I would have stayed longer, but I told her I didn't see a reason to. She said Bill (Stephanie's Dad, Kristi's Step-Dad) had said it was so great to see me, Kristi and Stephanie together, laughing, and stuff like when we were younger. Before Mom came home, I called her so she would write down the website address for Kristi. And I told her to tell Stephanie she was right about why I was acting weird. LOL So when she got home, she said she had told Stephanie. I asked if she got it, and Mom said that she did. Stephanie got a big smile on her face, and said "I know we haven't seen each other in awhile, but I KNOW my girl!"

I've decided not to get my hopes up. I know if I do and nothing happens, I'll walk away hurt. I know people change, things change, and that's good. So the odds of me and Steph being close again is very slim. I will call her sometime and see what's up. Maybe try to do something. I would say I would love us to be friends again, but I won't bet on it, but I know yall already figured that one out. ;)

I went to Leigh's tonight and we went over the music we'd be playing, talked, laughed, and hung out. Good stuff. I'll be leaving from this side of town tomorrow afternoon and will head into work. I had a dream the other night someone put new strings on Sweet's guitar so I could start practicing again. Boy would that be nice!

I got a call the other day from a friend of mine, Leigh. I've known him for about 5 years I think... wow! Almost 6! I've been in the TAG Praise and Worship band with him, then we had out own outreach band as well. When I left for TBI that whole thing died, and I haven't done anything since music wise. I've missed it so much. So he calls, and says he's starting a new project, and wants me in it. Now I will share all the nice things he said (LOL): He said they need a strong female vocal, he doesn't know anyone who has a sound like I do, and that I have a good sense of good music. Ok, I'm done making myself smile now. LOL Anywayz. I AM SUPER EXCITED! I have been wanting this for so long! I miss singing, jamming with a band, and being on stage. This is gonna be so great! I'm very excited.

Work was fine today. There were some people who came in today, and they had british accents, which I always enjoy. Then when they were outside the store, they fired up a ciggarette... inside the mall!!! It was so funny, and so weird. We had to spray potpurri in the store, cuz it was everywhere. But it was so funny! I had never seen anyone do that! Can they do that over there? I don't know, but a computer can read your mind! For Real! Click Here!!

Went to work today and our DM (district manager) was there. His name is Ernie. He's a pretty kewl guy. He said he loved my smile and personality, but says I need to be as outgoing as I am, w/ the customers. I just try to be polite and not too loud, but I see what he's saying. Tim (McGraw) didn't win for the category he was up for at Flameworthy's which stinks, but his good pal Kenny (Chesney) won, so that's good. I'm hoping to find out about buddy passes tomorrow for Kansas City. I HAVE to go to these shows!! There's someone in Sherman, Tx offering me a ride, so I'd have to drive like 5 hours there, 5 hours back, so would need like $50 in gas. The tickets are $25 for both nights, then food for 3 days. Im hoping for the buddy passes cuz it would be more feesible money wise. SHOOT! I'd starve to see WD!

I'm going to a birthday paty this weekend for an old friend of mine. This should be pretty interesting. It's gonna be a reunion of sorts. All her old friends who never really talk anymore, but all still love eachother, hanging out, swimming, eating mex food, drinking margaritas. It will be fun I'm sure. The only thing I don't like was having to buy a bathing suit. It's just hard to find ones I like. Some of you know what I mean. LOL But that's ok. Well, that's all for tonight. Peace!

It's been yet again, a long time since I have blogged on my... wow! Almost 4 year old blog! Dang! I might have to do a tribute post one of these days! LOL So what's up with me? I moved out. I live w/ Sweet and her stepdad Casey an hour away from my family. That's been going well. For awhile there it was pretty rocky w/ me and Sweet. Not becuz we lived together, but becuz she got involved w/ someone who was not good for her. Since then he has been changing, and me and Sweet had a talk about some things and have been acting more like best friends again. I have a part-time job working at a clothing store in the mall. I want another job though, cuz Im not getting enuf hours. I got a car! It's a 93 Ford Explorer and it's amazing! In excellent condition, and it's all mine! :)

As far as my family goes, Heather failed her first year of high school. Poor thing. She's gonna do summer school, and 2 credit tests. It stinks cuz she was gonna live w/ me for the summer, but not now. Maybe she'll stay before and after. Taylor is taking GED classes, and will hopefully get her GED this summer. Mom is working at a great resturaunt, and she really enjoys it. She's seeing Jason again, but I've decided to stop caring. As long as my sis's are taken care of, i don't care. Unfortunately, they lost the house. It's been very difficult too. Having to realize that wont be our home anymore. The hardest thing is thinking of how that's the last place we had w/ Daddy before he died. They found an apartment, and it's hard moving a big house into a little apartment! IT's a nice complex though, so I'm sure they'll live. LOL

I'm still w/ my church. I'm still supposedly head of the youth group that's not there. That's been a big struggle with me. Sweet is doing an amazing job with the childrens ministry, and it stinks that there are NO youth. Well, there's one. I've tried talking to her and stuff, but it's hard when she has short answers. I've asked interests and stuff, but she said she doesn't really have any, that she doesnt do much of anything and she has no friends, cuz she's homeschooled. I would like to take her to a movie or something, but with so few hours at work it's just not possible right now. I'm also dealing with wanting to go to another church around here. My Dad goes there, he's the singles and cell pastor, would need an assistant, and the church is just booming! I love the pastor and his wife, and the church is just great. Mine is too, don't get me wrong. I love my church. I'm just struggling to find a place where I belong, especially since it was never my desire to be THE youth pastor, just assist and administrate. Anywayz. I'm not moving untill I get a clear answer from God.

I have gotten to see my 3 of my favorites with in a month of each other: John Mayer, Kenny Chesney, and Tim McGraw. Kenny was Taylors Bday surprise. I also took Heather to go see Avril Lavigne last week for her surprise. Their faces were priceless! I'm hoping to see my #1 fav band ever next weekend: WATERDEEP! This is their farewell show. My first and last real WD show. If anyone wants to give me a great Bday present, you can donate to the fund to get me to Kansas City, Missouri for the show. I would rather this than a Bday party.

I think that's all for now. Hope everyone is doing well. Peace!